Happy Wednesday! Hope you all had a fun and relaxing weekend. I spent my weekend going through my clothes and getting rid of pieces I no longer wanted or simply loss interest in. Let me tell you guys, doing this task was very challenging for me. I found it difficult to part with items that brought back memories, but at the same time I felt a sense of satisfaction with the process and was happy with the pieces I kept
Now onto today’s post, I wanted this post to be a little bit different than my usual posts. I want to update you all on my life. For those of you who know me personally already know that I’m a private person and don’t often talk about my life with people who I know very little about. I want to change that! One of my new goals this year is to be as transparent as I can be with my readers. This will be a challenge, but I do hope some of you will find this helpful and know that you’re not alone in this journey of hits and misses, called life.
I have been having mixed feelings about a few things in my life. I’ve questioned my career path and have questioned where I am in life today. After graduating from college with my bachelor’s in Psychology, I decided to move back to my hometown. I made the mistake of expecting too much, sometimes with high expectations comes disappointment. I figured I would come back home and have my dream job. Wrong.
After my move back to Santa Cruz, I was lucky to have a couple of job opportunities. My first job back home required me to do home visits and work one on one with children to break undesirable behaviors. I was a Behavioral Interventionists, my job was flexible and well paid. I stayed there for a few months, but figured there was more out there for me. I began looking for other jobs and was happy to be given the opportunity of working with a well-known non-profit organization. My position there was similar to my previous job; however, my main focus was to implement learning activities for mother and child that would allow development and prepare child for school. I enjoyed working alongside both parent and child and remained in this position for half a year. Something still did not feel right and I left this position to pursue something I believed would allow me to live the life I wanted and dreamed about.
A Bump On The Road
My sister who is a couple years younger than me had just graduated from San Jose State University. She was applying to grad school at San Jose State for the Masters in Social Work program. She tried to convince me to do the same. At this point I had dismissed the idea of grad school, because quite honestly I was tired of all the sleepless nights and long days studying. After much debating back and fourth I finally gave in and decided to take the brave step towards applying to grad school. Let me tell you guys, this process is very daunting… San Jose State only accepts about 80 students into their MSW program each year. It becomes very competitive. They go by a point system, the points add up and then you get accepted. The points are gathered through your GPA, persuasive letters of recommendation, experience, and an extraordinary essay. After a few grueling weeks of waiting for a response the school finally lets you know whether you are accepted or denied. Unfortunately for me, I didn’t make the cut. I felt disappointed and felt depressed for a few weeks. Almost as if I wasn’t good enough… My sister on the other hand got accepted. It was a bittersweet feeling. I was upset for my rejection, but had to keep a smile on my face for my sister. I felt as though I was not going places in my life and felt like I took a step backwards.
A Bright Future
After much reflection, I decided that I wanted to figure out where I wanted to be within my career. I was not sure whether I wanted to attain my MSW or go into another profession. After all, I had only applied to one school, San Jose State… I have a dozen other schools I can apply to. The possibilities are endless with an open mind and determination.
Educational institutions have been a part of my life since I began attending school as a preschooler. Given that thought, I fancied the idea of becoming a teacher. Before committing to applying for a credential program I figured I would become a substitute teacher. This would allow me to absorb different grade levels and really get a feel for what teaching said grade level would be like. I’ve been substitute teaching for half a year now and I love it! I teach grades Pre-school through 12th grade and have found that I especially like being in the classroom with elementary age children as well as middle school students. At the moment this is where I plan to remain, I love the flexibility I have as a substitute teacher/ human resource sub and I really enjoy the teachers and staff I meet on a daily basis.
I have big plans that will both be life changing and beneficial for my life goals. I will be updating you guys on this when the time comes. Stay tuned and thank you so much for supporting me on my blogging journey. My blog has truly become a creative outlet where I can showcase you other parts of my life. In addition, as for my sister, I couldn’t be more proud. She keeps me motivated and is one of my biggest supporters when it comes to furthering my education and career.